I talked to my friend the other day and here's what she said to me..
"Have you ever felt used? I dunno but lately I feel that way especially when I'm with my friends. For some reasons, when I'm with them I turn into someone esle. I just can't be myself.Maybe there are times that I actually enjoy spending time with them, but sometime I feel that I'm faking it. I smile when I don't feel like it, I laugh when I don't feel like it and all the other stuff that I don't feel like mentioning. No doubt they're my friends but there are times when I feel like my heart is burning in frustration. I hate feeling this way. I hate it because the feeling always makes me cry myself to sleep at night. I really wish I can just tell them how I feel, but it's really hard. It really is. But this feeling is torturing me. And sometimes I feel like I just want to hide myself in my room and not see anyone espiecially them. I sound like a bad person, am I? I dunno who else to tell. I really need to get this out of my chest. I really dunno what to do. I can't tell them how I feel but I'm hurting myself. I feel like I'm a puppet and I'm suffocated."
The quotation might sound a bit dramatic because I can't really rememeber the whole thing. But I think it's almost like what she said the other day.
Kinda sad when I heard it from her. Really pity her to get stuck in such situation. I really wish I can help her, but I just don't know how. I feel that, sometimes we just have to sacrifice ourselves for others.(This sucks).
Well there's only one thing I can say to you
"Continue crying yourself to sleep at night if that makes you feel better"
Gosh I really hope she doesn't read this or else she'll kill me!!
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i guess everyone must have felt that in one way or another.
most of the time, it's hard to come clean. because that would mean hurting others, and mostly hurting yourself too.
sometimes, what's right for us doesn't seem the right thing for others. so, sbb tula kkdg kite go with the flow je. last2 sendiri makan hati.
crying yourself to sleep seems like a better solution.
yup...
most people feel like the way she does..kesian gak ar time dia crita..she was crying at that time..too bad she went to the wrong person..I didn't give her any advice since I dun kno any..but at least i listened..
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