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Gosh those curse words almost slipped my lips when I'm told that I need to attend an Eng course in Semporna. Might not sound like a big problem. But it is to me, especially when I don't have a transport and was told to go by bus and I don't have accommodation as well since I may have to stay for a night there.

I was so freaking mad just now. So I stormed back to the staffroom slamming my books and papers on the table..Gosh..Losing temper is the last thing I wan to do in school..So I really thank God because when I almost lost it I got a message from J saying that she is 60kg..well that surely make my day..and I no longer am mad..So bring it baby..And so sorry mr.principal..

i like teaching science

I find it is much easier to teach science than english. Yes, I have to read some notes before going to class but at least I have content to teach rather than english where I have to squeeze my brain in order to come up with activities to ensure my students won't have their head on the table. Today when I taught science in form 4a, all the students were awake and were listening to everything I was saying. Except for the 3 stooges. Besides I'm happy teaching that subject. Its not like I hate teaching english. I do like it, but I hate it when I have to repeat myself a few times since the students couldn't understand me. That got me really frustrated. Hmm

I also like teaching science as I can crap all the time. Not too crappy. Just crappy examples that can make the students laugh and understand the content at the same time. Its fun cause I can laugh at the same time..Can't wait for my next science class. Oh next next please come faster..

again n again n again

A slap on my face yet again..

I'm not that stupid yet I got cheated yet so many times. I want to trust the person but he is just so very hard to trust. I think it is not possible for me to really trust him again whole-heartedly. I've been warned so I'm quite prepared for this. Besides, I've experienced this so many times that there are times I feel like this thing is expected. He will not stop doing this. So now, I do listen to his sweet talk..just listen and never take it to the heart. What's the point of believing those words when it is said to everyone else as well. Those words have lost all it worth. Cheap. Can be said to everyone so easily..

So, I'm terribly sorry..you can do whatever you want from now on. Message all the girls you want, call them, ym them, fb them and maybe meet them. I could not care less. And I will never take my revenge for lowering myself to your level is the last thing I want to do. Do whatever you want. You may think I'm an idiot but I just couldn't care less. We will never work anyway.

As of now I just want to have you as friend. Someone I can call and share my problems and maybe nag a little. Someone I can talk crap to when I couldn't talk to other people. A company. Hopefully nothing more than that.

Sorry

Diary of Jane??

If Jane can write a diary, so can I

I'm so frustrated today..and if i don't control myself hard i may end up doing things that i'll regret later (not serious stuff tho)..

No, I'm not an understanding person and don't expect me to be one.why do i have to do things your way?always?I hate you..and I hate myself for not being able to get away from you.

As of now, I really wish that we are not contacting each other.No call, no messages, no email, no nothing..That way you'll get all the rest that you need without have to listen to me complaining and nagging.Gosh

Last night I didn't feel so well so I thought you could console me.But what did I get in return "plz understand me"..Have you ever tried to understand me??Have you??Do you even know why I like to call you?

I called you because I needed company the most.It's been like that for a long time.And I thought that is something you can easily give me..But it turns out that it's the last thing that you can give me..I didn't call you to share stories..I called you because I want to talk to someone and have someone talking back at me..But you only asked me to talk..You have no idea how disappointed I was..Feels like I'm too NEEDY while you don't need me at all..

You know what, things will change from today onward..I won't be the old me whether you like it or not..If you like it you can stay..If you don't you are free to leave and find someone else..